Tell me why this is bothering me.

[LG Gone Wild]

Ugh, I just got my head handed to me in kickboxing class. I don't mind being beat up by the guys, but another woman? It's so stupid of me. I should have thanked her for showing me where I needed to improve but I just felt like a loser instead.

[Doran]

Ugh, I just got my head handed to me in kickboxing class. I don't mind being beat up by the guys, but another woman? It's so stupid of me. I should have thanked her for showing me where I needed to improve but I just felt like a loser instead.

I know from whence I speak. Just a week ago, our class played "King of the Mountain". This is a fun game where we line up by size, not rank and we spar for a single point. Whoever gets the point wins the fight and moves on to fight the next person in line. It keeps going with winners fighting the next in line until we get to the end. As one of the taller adults in the class, I was near the end of the line. My thirteen year old daughter was several people down the line from me. But, she is also a higher rank than me. She won, and won, and won. She beat a female black belt. And she beat a really excellent brown belt. No surprise, she beat me, too, and she did it so cleanly and quickly that I didn't even have a chance to react. Afterwards, everyone said, "Good grief, why'd you just STAND there?" I laughed, but I was choking on my pride at the same time.

Another incident occurred at our last tournament when I was knocked on the floor twice in one match by the same guy. I've never hit the floor before in a tournament, and it really, really shook me up. I realized that the thing that hurt most was my pride. Somehow I felt I should have been better able to ward that off, to give it back to him, to protect myself.

As humans we are competitive, and most of us have a desire to win, even if it is fairly latent. My sense is that's why it's bothering you.

It's okay. Next time, maybe it'll be her head! :rolleyes:

Doran

[LG Gone Wild]

Of course, I know this to be true but really, at my age and experience (ahem, limited) I should get past this or at least be mature about it.

Perhaps, it wouldn't be as bad if people didn't comment! I did such a poor showing that the next person I sparred against felt so sorry for me, he didn't even spar back much. In fact, he didn't even punch once. Ouch.

[BamaTanya]

who can kickbox! You're awesome!

(My pride would be hurt, too.)

[LG Gone Wild]

who can kickbox! You're awesome!

(My pride would be hurt, too.)

Since I can't cook or sew and am not particularly brainy, I am trying find *something* that I can do.:p